Today I saw my boyfriend cry for the first time. My boyfriend, Khayan, and I have a very interesting relationship where we sometimes joke around like ten year olds, but sometimes have very deep conversations about life. Also, despite the great possibility of breaking up due to our young age, I care for him and about his future.  Before I started dating Khayan, he used to be someone who was not so confident in himself and was not ambitious. He told me a long time ago that his dream was to become more successful than his parents, however, he did not have an exact plan and was not necessarily working very hard to achieve that dream. I believe this was because his insecurities limited his ability to push himself harder and think out of the box. We often joked that I was his motivational speaker and a strict Chinese tutor. Over the years I saw him slowly changing, however, the changes were not significant and sometimes I thought that maybe I should break up with him and focus on myself; in other words, I spent so much time hanging out as well as supporting him that I often questioned if I was wasting my time. However, after telling him what I was thinking, I said, “Maybe the reason I want you to succeed is because somewhere in my heart I want you to be in my life for a long time.” After hearing this he started tearing up with joyful tears. 

Today, I told my father that I no longer wanted to spend time in school but rather wanted to self learn things online. In other words I told him I wanted to do all my main academic courses online  next year. This idea had been on my mind since grade 8, and in fact, I remember that back in Grade 9 I wrote an essay trying unsuccessfully to convince my father. The reason why I wanted to do courses online is because I felt that a lot of school material could have been learned in a shorter amount of time. To back up this statement: 1. I was able to study grade 11 and 12 Physics as well as first year college Physics in two months 2. Some teachers are not passionate about their subject matter, and in fact one watched golf tournaments during our class and never taught, which made me realize that I could have learned some courses at a much faster pace  3. Instead of aiming to study for grades, I would be able to truly learn the material 4. Most importantly, I wanted to work on self assigned projects, such as my stationery and website/advertising management business, youtube, and music. Surprisingly, after two hours of conversation my father agreed to my plan. To be completely frank, I was not expecting this outcome at all since we often have difficulties being on the same page. So next year, my goal is to finish the one year course by September and I would like to challenge myself to see how many courses I can do in a short amount of time. At the same time, I would like to focus on creating youtube content that could make people laugh and touch their hearts, as well as creating funny commercials for the stationery business and expanding it by working hard. 

While doing this I would definitely want to work hard on improving my producing and dj skills, simultaneously working towards creating my album. In conclusion, my ultimate goal before I graduate is to finish my album, do my best to become more knowledgeable, challenge myself to do something people have never done, expand my stationery business, and lastly change people’s lives with my creative pieces.

July 8th, was the due date to register for my summer courses online.  I was very motivated to finish Physics 11 and 12, and Chemistry 12, on top of the three online courses I am currently taking. The online courses I am taking right now are Pre Calc 11, Entrepreneurship 12, and Japanese 12. However, after thinking deeply about registering for more courses, I was hesitant because the amount of work I must commit to would be immense and overwhelming. The benefit of doing these courses would be that I would be able to do more things during the school year by finishing these courses. On the other hand, the drawbacks were how there is a high chance that I could lose balance, and therefore, I would not be able to guarantee doing very well in all five of the courses. Most importantly, the biggest consequence was how the time I could spend on personal projects would have to be taken away. I had these goals and projects for the summer that I originally wanted to finish during the school year, however, due to school it was not possible. In fact, this frustration of not being able to achieve my personal goals was increasing and making me sad. I knew that by doing those courses, although it may have benefits, it would not be as exhilarating as achieving my own goals. As a result, in order to do what makes me happy I decided to not do any of the summer courses and focus on my personal projects instead. I am very proud that I made this decision to spend time on myself instead of spending time to meet society’s expectations. 

After hanging out with Chloe, I was fascinated by her words: “Cleaning my room makes me calm because I get to get rid of the negative energy stuck to my body, clothes, and furniture.” I fell in love with this idea and this inspired me to clean my room. At the time my room was chaotic, with piles of unorganized papers on the floor, dirty clothes in my bed, and unfolded clothes on the shelf. My mother used to clean my room for me, but I haven’t cleaned my room for a very long time. However, today it was different and I envisioned my room looking reborn. First, I started by taking out all the clothes in my closet. Then I wiped every single corner inside the closet, shelf, and the ground, as well as organizing all my clothes, which took from 5 pm until 2 am. Additionally, the next day I moved my bed to a different angle and cleaned my bookshelf, which took me from 9 am to 5 pm to finish up. I am very proud of how clean my room looks now, and as Chloe said, I can feel the great vibrations resonating inside my room. I believe this will bring much more positivity into my life and I am very grateful that Chloe gave me this initiative.

Today I finally hung out with my friend, Chloe, who I consider my spiritual twin. I met her at my boyfriend’s prom and we instantly clicked talking about music, life beliefs, spirituality, and conspiracies. In fact, before I went to prom my psychic ability told me that there would be someone special that I would meet there. So, after bonding at prom we promised to hang out, and today I finally hung out with her. We first met at a cafe and then went to her house. We talked about a lot of things but in the end we stumbled on playing her tarot cards. We found out about many different things and it was astonishing how accurately it explained our present, and how deeply the future predictions and advice resonated.  I had a lot of fun hanging out with her, and I hope I can see her again soon.

Three weeks ago I started an Instagram account to share my writing works such as poems, motivational pieces, and personal diary entries. On that page I especially focus on sharing my diary entries. In the beginning I wrote about how my sister and I have been fighting a lot. I wrote a typical diary and a poem inspired by my relationship with my sister at the time. Someone commented “strong character, keep it up”.  This really made me motivated to keep on going despite the fact that I only had 10 followers. For my second writing piece I wrote a diary about how my tutor is an owner of a beautiful and kind heart. As I kept on writing my number of followers grew to 78 in two weeks. However, sometimes I question my growth process because there are other accounts that started at the same time and have 2000 followers now. I wonder what I can do to improve.

Recently, I have been living at my best friend Levi’s house.  This might sound odd, however, what I mean by this is that I have been sleeping over at Levi’s almost everyday and it feels as if I am living at his place. For me, Summer is a busy time academically.  Lately, I have been studying for my online course midterm. I usually like going to cafes to study, although it’s always inconvenient because of the fact that I need to spend money every time I go. Additionally, cafes are often quite noisy with a lot of distractions, and it is hard to find a good spot where I can instantly start focusing. However, I have found the best study environment in the world at my friend’s house.  Levi’s house has a beautiful and peaceful balcony that has the perfect amount of breeze and sunshine. Since Levi and I are close, his family welcomed me to stay at his house to study. As a result, I slept over at his house for three days in a row and hung out with him almost every day, and used his balcony to study

Today I learned about Starseeds and Light Walkers from Aaron Doughty’s YouTube video. This is a complex and spiritual concept about how humans are sent from higher dimensions to earth, in order to raise the vibrations and positivity in our planet. When our higher self comes to earth we forget who we are, and one of the adventures of life is to find out more about ourselves and realize our purpose.This is also known as the Spiritual Awakening. I was very intrigued with what Aaron Doughty was saying. He said that the Starseeds are people whose purpose is to spread more divine light and have a deeper connection with the galaxies and stars. Light Walkers are people who are connected to the inter dimensional energies around Earth, with a similar purpose to spiritually awaken other people. He said these two words are just labels that differentiate people with different purposes, and it doesn’t really matter which you are, but the concept of being more in-tune with yourself to realize your purpose is important. He also talked about the importance of meditation. I would like to start meditating to be more in tune with my higher self.

Animation Vs Human

Alladin Movie Review: Animation Vs. Human

Today I watched the movie, Aladdin, in a theatre. Many people say that this human version remake of Aladdin was better than the original animated version. However, I personally did not think so. First of all, most of the scenes, storyline, and music in the new version was exactly the same as the original. This took out any plot twists or excitement I had anticipated. In addition to that, the graphic effects were so detailed that even the animated objects in the scene where Genie performed his song, “Friend Like Me”, were exactly the same. However, for me that made me predict what would happen next since I had seen the animated version of Aladdin. Despite those negative elements, there were some parts of the movie I really enjoyed. For example, the director focused the movie more on messages such as female empowerment, by having an ending where Jasmine becomes the Sultan in the new version, rather than just marring Aladdin. Additionally, the graphic design was beautifully done. However, by listing out the pros and cons, the positive elements in the animated movie outweigh the great aspects of the human version of Aladdin. Overall, for all those reasons, I believe the animated version of Aladdin was a great original with fresh content and creative and fantastic animation skills, that mad the unrealistic element more believable and magical.

When I was a little kid, I was always excited by the idea of becoming a spy. Their elegance, intelligence, and their athletic prowess were astonishing. I always watched spy movies and thought to myself, “Wow, I want to be like that one day”. I believe I have been street smart and sneaky since I was little. For example, I often unlocked my dad’s phone after finding out his password by pretending to sleep and peaking over his shoulder. Also, I used to steal money that my father dropped on the sofa when he lay down and took naps. Additionally, I recently found a way to hack into the wifi system to unlock his wifi time restriction. This passion faded as I grew older, however, this desire came back a few days ago. Recently, I watched a spy movie called “The Red Sparrow” and the character Dominica, who is the protagonist in this story, was very intriguing. How Dominica brilliantly used her beauty as a weapon to outsmart men, instead of letting men take power over her, was very empowering and made me want to be a better decision-maker and a more knowledgeable, and athletic person. This captivating movie made me want to read the “Red Sparrow” trilogy of books. This also motivated me to go beyond my limits and become an intelligent, strong and beautiful person with great leadership and accomplishments.